Staring at my to-do list, which forever remains that long, or even longer, i wonder if i could ever accomplish them. Has studies become my main focus now? I guess so. deep in my heart i know this isn't what i want to do, just what i got to do. it's kinda sad, really. everytime i think of it, study so hard for 4 years just to get THE cert, then move on to the workforce, then work so hard to earn money. it's true that engineers do all the behind-the-scenes job, that u won't even know that they actually made a difference in this community. is that what i want? i don't know.
From the bottom of my heart i apologize to some of my friends, whom sometimes i got so busy i didn't have time to spend with you all, or at least to ask how're u doing in life. and i'm grateful for some of the friends around me who despite their busyness, cared to ask about me.
Fear haunts me from time to time; fear that i may lose people i love around me, fear that i do not get to spend enough time with them and result in regret, fear that my friendships won't last, fear that the time will come and my friends & family remain unsaved because i did not do much.
Life is uncertain.
I guess I should learn from the beginning again how to cherish each moment of my life.
Although i do not know what holds in the future, whether in 4years time the people around me will change, i know who holds my future.
and to You, I lift up my praise :)